Of Money & Happiness

Money & Happiness: Are they really connected?

Part I - On Money

» What's in it (money) that makes us happy?
» Why is money associated with happiness?

Let's begin with the popular saying,

"Money cannot buy happiness"

-> this sentence can neither be true or false
-> this is an invalid statement
->; meaning, it doesnt make sense to me

The happiness of a person may depend on:

-> one's outlook in life
-> one's personal goals
-> one's circumstances
-> one's expectations: oneself and to others

Like if the goal of a person involves a lot of money but has only little of it, well... it affects. Money can be an obstacle.

Well, another thing, it gives satisfaction.

-Money can expand one's horizon.
Ex. It can let you travel around the world
It can buy those books you've been dying to read in the bookstore

-Money can give you peace of mind.
Ex. If you are religious, talk about Indulgences.
Charity...you know, that Money+love+then-give-it-to-the-poor thing

-Money can make things easy.
Ex. Comfort, lets you buy that comfy chair you tried in the mall.
Can hire you a maid to do your household chores
It gets you that state-of-the-art cellphone

-Money satisfies our basic needs.
Ex. Food, shelter

-You got the idea..

Before we proceed, lemme ask you a question.
Do you really believe the saying that all things are created equal?

» What is Money?

-> it is a form of physical representation of a value.

» What is Value?

-> the amount of money or other commodity or service, etc. considered to be equivalent to something else or which a thing can be exchanged (oxford)
-> desirability, usefulness, importance (oxford)
-> the ability of a thing to serve a purpose or cause an effect (oxford)

We humans created "value". We put value on almost everything. Yes, it's true that everything has a value. Everything is made for a reason. The only thing is that we classify things by putting "value" into them by putting a price. We classify things as superior, average, and inferior. Anyway, who wants to be inferior?

So, are all things then created equal? Yes it is. It is the creation of value and pricing that started it all. Money may makes us happy but it's the source of unhappiness as well. (ok, you may argue with me in this one.)

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PART II- Forget about Money

» Is money really necessary to be happy?
» Are animals capable of love and happiness? They dont have money.
» If Money then cannot buy happiness, what really makes us happy?

Forget about money. It's not the question anymore. As we went through some "evolution", Money has now become a basic commodity next to clothing, food and shelter.

Like,
Without food, we die of hunger.
Without shelter, we die of cold or heat.
without clothing, we die of embarrassment! (kidding)
And if without money, we cant have anything of these, so we die!

If we cannot satisfy our basic needs, we cant be happy. Like, hello, can you propose love to someone with your stomach rumbling? Duh.

Just kidding :P (but true anyhow)

Animals are capable of love and happiness. See how they take care of their young? See how dogs wiggle their tails when they see their masters? They'r happy and they dont even have money. Our love is all they need. If we love them, we care for them. We just dont cut trees if we knew that it's the home of so many creatures, do we? Unfortunately, lol.

It is Love that kept these creatures alive.

If that is so, love is all we need. Love the only thing that makes you happy that is money-free. It is Priceless. Love makes us happy, contented. Love is the source of happiness and contentment.

There's a difference between being happy and contented.

» What is happiness?

-> Feeling or showing pleasure or contentment, fortunate. Outward manifestation is a grin, laughter, shown through strong emotions of excitement. (oxford)

» What is contentment?

-> Tranquil happiness, satisfied with what one has. Outward manifestation is a smile with a peaceful look that lasts. (Tranquil -> calm, undisturbed, not agitated.) (oxford)

So how do we differentiate the two?

What we seek is contentment. We can be happy anytime.
We can find happiness everywhere, but we are never contented.

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Part III - So, what makes us CONTENTed?

Stones and diamonds
If diamonds were as many as stones, would it still be THAT precious?

No, it's because we put more value on things that are rare, unique...

Diamonds are rare.
Not everyone has it.
Therefore, it's unique.

It is human nature, the need to be Special.
It's all about Uniqueness and Individuality,
To stand out from the crowd,
To be famous, popular, known.

It can be seen through little things we do.
Like when costumize, personalize things?
The want to have that must-have-limited edition?!

» So it really is that 'common word' LOVE...that can make us content?

Of all the things that matter to us, conciously or subconciously, yes, it is LOVE. For it's the only thing that can make us feel that way. To be loved, to be be the apple of one's eye, to be wanted and special.

It is in love that makes us see ordinary things extraordinary.

"She's different from the rest that's why I love her."

We dont want commonality. We despise it.

"I thought he's different from the rest. Men! theyr are all just the same!"

So what really need that we already have is LOVE. We need love to be happy, we need love to go on with life. It is love that makes us strong, that makes us live another day. The love of life, the love of everything, the reason of our contentment. For it is who we are. We are love.

So let us be true to ourselves. Listen to our hearts.
For within can only be found our truth -
Our innermost desires.
And that is to love and be loved.

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General Conclusion:

Without money, we die

But,

With love, we survive!

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Doink!

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Advice?

Why is that it is so easy to give advices to other people? And when we are problemized, we turn to other people too? Why don’t we figure it out ourselves? Why is that so?

Well, they’re not the one facing the problem…so it’s easy. They’re not the one experiencing the pressure. They don’t have to think of those things that the person handling the problem could be worrying about. So those with a problem seek advices to other people, whoever they are. Other people can give advice so easily coz all answer to all problems is simple. Only humans make it complicated. As who we are by nature, we have this knack of making simple things to complicated ones. It’s because when we are faced with a problem, we let other thoughts enter before we even can think about the original answer which comes to us naturally. Each of us knows the answer even before we could even think about another solution. Though we know the answer, we tend to turn left and right instead of going straight. So we kind of “need” someone to lead us coz we are blinded. We are blinded with negativity and those unnecessary thoughts. They cloud our thinking, thus we cannot see the pure answers anymore which is in its simplest form. So this is what advices are here for. We seek them coz we know they help us lead to the answer. It may give us the direct way or give us hints and clues to the solutions. We may also receive different answers when we ask advices from anyone. So how do we know which advice is better? People have different perspectives and way of thinking. So if you ask different people, unique as they are, you are given different answers too. Different, but they only lead to one thing. All you have to do which path to choose, they all lead to the same direction-- though only in different ways.

Basically, we seek advice to give us the assurance that the path that we are taking is right even though deep inside we already knew what’s the answer. Therefore, when we seek advices, what we are really seeking for is the assurance, not the advice itself. The assurance that our solutions are fine. That everything will be alright and that everything will turn out just fine.

On Getting the Girl You Want

You like a girl... you have no experience... your friends dont seem to have the perfect advise... She doesnt seem to notice you. What do you do? Make known of your existence to her and court her?? Naaahhh.. chances are, you're busted before you even get to court her.

Anyway, Is she the kind that seems hard to get? Well, yes...or you shouldnt be here in the first place. All you need is a strategy. A master plan.

Let's get on with it.

PHASE I. -ESTABLISH FRIENDSHIP.

Yep, this is it. Ths may simple but this is the hardest step. This requires patience, art and style. You have to make it PLATONIC. In the first months of your friendship (yes, MONTHS) you will have to get to know her. Know some details about her. You MUST NOT make it obvious that you like her more than just a friend---NOT yet. In this phase, you show her what you are made of. You show her the good you have and your special abilites (if there's any). Things that you know that will impress her... but be discreet. You do this while not making her sense that you have a "hidden agenda". And that implies that you shouldnt be too helpful too or she'll suspect! Treat her as just a friend. This may be hard, you must be thinking i am crazy thats why i tell you patience is required! Anyway, who says getting the girl you want is easy??? Who do you think you are, Brad Pitt? Hah.

What good will this bring you?

Of course, common sense, the very best the foundation of lasting romantic love (if ever you are serious this time) is Friendship. And establishing friendship is not easy as you have to gain the trust of the person. Most guys underestimate this. Anyway, I think I have to point out some things coz some guys usually dont use their head:

You get to know her much MUCH BETTER.
If a girl knows that you like her and knows your intention, chance is, you wont get to know her better. Just a side of her and or she might even change personality. Or worst, she might even resent you. Afterall, she doesnt know you! This is what to avoid in the first place. But if the girl, knowing that you only "see" her just as her friend, she won't be awkward telling things. She will be comfortable telling things to you. She may even share some secrets and problems with you. Be a good conversationalist. Girls by nature love conversation... and avoid hints that you like her.

This creates an air of mysteriousness.
The girl will be left thinking, "He appeared out of nowhere and made friends with me, he's very nice. I wonder why... he seems not to make a move. I dont know. But does he like me????" When the girl thinks this way, she'll be thinking a lot about you. She'll be trying to figure out whether you like her or not. She'll be intrigued. In the this stage. She's starting to think about you! But this doesnt mean that she already likes you too. But dont celebrate just yet.... this is just the beginning.

Well, if you're lucky... in the long run, this would make her WANT YOU.

PHASE II. -We're friends already --WHAT'S NEXT???
Already best friends with her? Now things are much easy... So easy that this up to you this time! Be creative. Good luck ;) Bwahahahahaha~!!! You even might be having a relationship already before you knew it!

Ja!

(this entry was inspired due to the pathetic filipino guys out here)

Star Struck

Last night I watched the premiere showing of PinoyBlonde -a philippine film. I didnt like the movie but the actors were cute! When the movie was finished, I was talking to my friends how dissappointed I was coz I had high expectations of the film coz during the press conference, they said it wasn't your typical Pinoy film. As we were going out of the cinema, I was rambling here and there until I noticed that it wasnt my friend anymore walking beside me. Oh, okay, I lost them. Then they guy beside me said "Hi". I turned to look at him expecting a person i knew, but to my shock, it's Boy2!!! OH MY FUCKIN GOD. And just behind me was Epy Quizon, and the person already in front of me was the director Peque Gallaga o_O OMG, the main actors of the film just heard me ranting o__O Good thing they don't understand cebuano---i hope :-s

Ok, about the premiere showing...












I didn't like it. They say PinoyBlonde is not your typical pinoy movie. Yeah..not that that typical alright, but to me, it still is. Okay, let me put it this way, typically Pinoy BUT just in ANOTHER level..or perhaps a new breed of a typical pinoy film! :)) Yeah, they may have the plot that is so far out pinoy, the concept, the EXTRAS, the special effects, blablaba-- but for me, it still is typical. (awa ha, kakan.onon pa gani ko ug dimsum ug kabalhinon sa globe) I was so annoyed of the cinematography. Like, every move was edited literally, duh. Murag nabag.uhan ba, nagpalami ra sab sa gibati ug edit. It was just too much o_O. Yeah, they got the so-called "effects" but it was so annoying!! It gave me the headaches. Nagsakit ra akong mata. Naglalis pa gyud mi ni Adelle ug kadyot ana, kay usahay pakurog-kurog man gud ang effects sa ubang scene dayon ingon si Adelle sa SM ra kuno na. Technical error kunohay ba. If you gonna tell the story to other people, gee, you're not gonna include the camera shots, angles, movement -or whatsoever, are you? I mean, i just find the hocus pocus unnecessary. Just too much of it.

So it's a film about films... okay, fine. So it's intelligent. Okay, fine! No comment about it. But the humour... SHiiiiiT, it was so TYPICALLY PINOY!!! SOOO COOOOOOOOOOOORRNNYYYYY...!!!! CORNY GYUD KAAYO!!!

So who do you think is the best Filipino director, Brocka or Bernal? That's what the main characters were debating about in the movie. I didnt even know those people. How could I relate to what they were talking about? Mag-research? Duh. Not everyone are film savvies and not all those savvies watch tagalog films, mind you. My parents may know those directors, like Brocka is Sharon's Cuneta's favorite, BUT to think that this film is targeted to people in an age range who watches batman and spiderman o_O. Wala man gani kaila si Amarantha kinsa na si Sharon Cuneta! I like the concept of the film, I just dont like the execution and all.

You can call me close-minded, unintelligent, inexperienced --- I DONT CARE. Kun naganahan man ug MAAYO ang mga Cebuano na nitan.aw sa premiere showing kagabii, most probably na starstruck ra tingali sila! It's not typical that a premiere showing of a film from Manila is held in Cebu.

Well, PinoyBlonde is worth a try. You go see for yourselves. Dont let my opinion hinder you from seeing it. As the ads put it: hindi typical Pinoy film. Astig.

Dare to Dream

A Recap

I was reading some past entries of my old online journal. The moments where I was so HIGH! It all happened in year 2004. Many things happened in this year. I've learned so many things about this thing we call Life. All I can say about it is that 2004 was probably the best year of my life. I'm not going to tell everything, some things are just too personal that not even my bestest friends dont know about; but I'll feature my sports life. Probably when I get old I might want to remember how it feels like to be young again. Most probably, I might want to remember how silly and funny I was when it comes to my quest to Olympics :)):)):)) So I am making a record to make sure. :)) Here are 3 of the major text I wrote during that time. LOL, it's really funny reading them again. Yes, dreaming is fun :) Silly, but it makes me smile. Really something to tell. I usually don't write about the details, I'm more into whats happening in my mind. So, take a peek. ;) Enter my world.

This first one was written somewhere in September 2004, just after the Greece Olympics. I couldnt remember exactly what happened but I knew for sure I had the Olympic spirit with me that time... damn. To think, I was really serious! *dies of embarrassment*

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Part I : I Have a Dream

To wake up in the morning and do the same thing all over again, I don’t want that kind of life. Life is too short but so many things to do. But why don’t I just eliminate the much and focus on one thing? That’s what I am doing now that I have found what I want. I have always believed that I can be who what I wanted to be if I would just will it. If they can do it, why can I not? So what if they started training when they were still small? Did they already have the strong conviction and the power of spirit during that age? Did they already know what they wanted to be in the future when they started the first steps of training? I don’t think so. A six year old won’t just go seriously to the Sport Commission Office and ask to the officer in charge what it takes to be in the Olympics… like what I did! Talent would make up for the lost experience.

To be in the Olympics, it’s not just a dream, it’s a decision. Not just any kind of decision, but a life-long decision. It can change your life forever. It’s a goal. What you do, no matter how big or small, you do it for the attainment of it. If you already know what you have always wanted, you don’t drift anymore.Then you follow the road towards it; making dream a reality. You are now in control of your destiny and that your life is forever changed. It’s different this time, when your goal is finally finalized; you know where you are going. And if you are strong enough, you can overcome each obstacle along the way. And the nearer you approach your goal, obstacles become bigger and bigger. That’s natural.

Now I fully understood the metaphor, “Life is a game.” But unlike a game, when the game is over, we don’t start again right from the very beginning. We move on -but a much better person than we were before. So there is really nothing to lose, but everything to gain. You may miss something, but oh well, life goes on. :P

~September 2004

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In this next text, I was so down in this time. My beloved parents just told me to stop my track & field coz of the expenses and also I always arrived home late. They're afraid something bad might happen to me on the way... and so was I. I wrote this coz I couldnt sleep and I had to give myself some boosting and lift my spirits up. Hehehe, omg, I'm so funny!! =))

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Part II: Go the Distance

You know what, my ultimate dream is to be in the Olympics. Well... in a 3rd world, and so out of luck.. Yeah, it is so downright STUPID, so TIME-WASTING, so IMPRACTICAL, so UNIMAGINABLE, and so IMPOSSIBLE. Of all things!!! Of all things to be dreamed of!! Why this one!! Am I cursed or what? Nah, maybe just plain insane. Something's wrong with me. Sometimes I feel confused, frustrated, and denied. Sometimes I don't know what to do and most of the time I dont understand myself.I feel so down. I feel enslaved by my own thoughts. I dont want to think the same things all over and over again.Maybe I'm just pretending to be something that I am not...? But why then it feels so right? Maybe I'm just delusional, dont you think? Living a world of lies and make-believe. And that, I am not sure of myself anymore...

But damn... damn all these thoughts! DAMN IT ALL! They'r just thoughts, anyway! I dont want to be a loser for not trying. I'd rather be labeled stupid for even trying, coz I would still feel stupid for not trying anyhow. More stupid if I just dream! I have to wake up and make it a reality. I think it is better this way. It may be hard, but this is it... I have the chance to prove to the whole world that even the most impossible of dreams (given my damnable situation) can come true. All I have to do is to hang on to that dream! Yes, I am aware that it's easy to some people to be there, ok?! Some dont even have to dream it! They have the opportunities... well, I dont have that... I only have what it takes to be there.

~November 2004

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LOOOOL, i think I was REALLY high on painkillers at that time.... Read this next one, this was written a few weeks later... This time I had to accept the harsh reality, but I didnt want it to be so harsh.

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Part III: The Conclusion

You know, I've been thinking. I find it stupid and downright impractical if I would go further with this Olympic thing. It's useless. Anyway, I don’t care anymore. It's just for self-satisfaction. Just something to prove on something. Well, I kinda realized there's more to life than that. My friend Adelle would probably roll her eyes on me if she knew.

I love sports with a passion. Doesn’t matter what sport... I just want to play...or anything that involves psychomotor. I don’t know how it is but I am happy when I play. I think it's not because of the endorphins or whatever neurotransmitters or hormones that are released, I think it's just because for the sheer enjoyment. Self-satisfaction perhaps? I dunno. I just knew I wanted more. Maybe Olympics was my answer, but LOL.

In my 4th year, I was into basketball. My friend Amarantha and I tried out for the basketball varsity. Though we didn’t know how to play basketball, we still tried out for varsity with the help of our dear friend Adelle. Well, we didn’t try out and make fools out of ourselves for nothing, so of course, we did practice well. And we were good. Though we didn’t make it due to some certain circumstances, we never regretted it and just charged it to experience. After all, we had fun :). There may be bad, worst and some good times, but overall, the experience was great.

People may wonder why we didn’t continue practicing basketball. Well, it's because I really didn’t enjoy it that much. My heart just wasn’t to basketball though I could dedicate my life to it. Confusing, isn’t it? I think I just did basketball just for the sake of playing. Just 2 months ago I quit Flag football still for the same reason! I knew I had potential in that sport, (well, when was it that I didn’t have? :P) I just don’t have much fun playing flag football that much. I did enjoy, I admit. It just doesn’t satisfy me...or it's not just it. To be honest, it was BORRIIIING!!

I play to enjoy--to have fun! It’s not because I wanted to be the best and would realize that I am not good at it? No, it's not it. I've been good to every sport I played. And I could be best at it if wanted to. Sadly though, even if I wanted to, I couldn’t... *smiles faintly*...it depends. I'm just talented and without money. Well, that's life. Well, I am through thinking that. I'm stopping.

I am not a quitter. Others may view that I am coz I’ve been involved to a 'lot' of sports and never did I settle. Well, actually, it's because of my stupid pride. You know, I dont quit. I never did. I never get discouraged or anything. And I'm not choosy or something. Sports for me, well, if I were a man, it's like women. I just have to find the perfect one and in order to find the ONE I have to taste it all!!!!! LOL, kidding. Actually, it's the fun, the joy, the love of the game that makes it perfect :) It's not also because of whom you are playing with.

Don’t get me wrong when I say fun, it's not just senseless fun that need not to be taken seriously, and that it's okay to lose? No, I don’t accept defeat just like that. In a game, the challenge is the thing that I love most, not the prize to be given or the title that is to be awarded. When I am able to give my best, to play the game as if it is my last, there is no prize greater than the satisfaction that is felt. And that what makes me happy. That’s the only thing I am sure of why I love to play. You know, to play to the point that you now think you ought to be the one giving the prize? aaahhhh... the next best thing to being in love :D

Well, one thing to shut me up with these ramblings, I just want to be best at some sport. I was never been best at something. Or how else could I play the game of my life? I know I can be, but how? I never actually had the opportunity; I just grab chances whenever I can. That’s why I was able to play tennis and soccer baseball. I guess I'm just quite unlucky. Poor me, there must be a way. Nah, not necessarily be the best. Not really... I can live not being best. Yeah, I can, of course. But damn, i want to be best! To be the very best that no ever was. :D

~December 2004

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Whew! I'm kind of glad of the "ending". Whew, no more olympics. Thank goodness I've gotten over it. Well, I'm sure that there is one thing I would never learn, to stop dreaming :)). I can be quite so confusing, no? Anyway, I'm still a teenager! I have the right to act like one :P And I'm enjoying it. The best part of being young and clueless. Yes, Life is beautiful! :)

Numb

As usual, I'm facing the computer... feeding my dA addiction. Seems like I'm stuck to this website. I've been wandering in dA looking for something... and I dont even know what exactly. Maybe subconsciously I really am looking for inspiration... or just simply addicted. I dont know exactly why I keep on going there... seeing artworks all throughout. Clicking endlessly on deviant icons... clicking on some pretty things that attract my attention. I'm not really an art fanatic... I don't even make my own art unless if I am forced. Maybe I'm just bored and is stuck in my own oblivion. Just got nothing to do at all... *ignores household work* I miss being myself -that's what I am sure of. I miss playing football and how it feels like to run. It's so frustrating to be impaired for quite a while. You just can't do the things you want to do, and even miss the opportunities that pass your life. Oh, well... it's so much like life. No wonder.

Human Weaklings

I'm not ashamed to admit I'm also into popular music. Some may not want it or admit it openly coz they say it's only for the masses and that they are a special group. So what if I'm into mainstream? That doesnt make me less special. They're so insecure. They'd pretend to go for something far out so that they would seem "cool" and "special". The feeling of their so-called "belongingness" is pathetic. You dont have to act or pretend something that you are not just to be cool. You just have to be yourself and how you handle things at hand. You dont have to be part of something just to feel that way. Gee, and they're so many of them!

I HATE MY FUCKIN LIFE WHY CANT I HAVE WHAT I REALLY WANT?!!!!
I HATE MYSELF I SO HATE MYSELF I HATE YOU I HATE THE WORLD!!!!

Nalukop Gihapon!

Nalukop ug kinaon. Grabe ang kaon ilahang Amarantha, oi! Grabe kaayo makabutang ug pagkaon ang mama niya! Spaghetti lang daan ay! Weeee! Lami kaayo ang pagkaon! Nabuang ko ug kinaon. Undang na lang gud ko ug ahat kay mura na ko ug kasuka-on! Patay-gutom gyud ko, oi! Hehehe. Baga pa gyud ug nawong!! Tungod ana karon rakong hapon nakakaon ug balik!! Bwahahahaha!!! Haskang...

Kyut kaayo akong gisul.ob gahapon!!! :D Chicks kaayo! Doink!

Nalukop!

Naunsa na man ko oi, nalukop ra gyud ko ug himo-himo ug blog o_O. Bwahaha... diri nako ipamutang ang akong mga kabuang diri sa internet! Maayo ni para naay rekord sa akong mga gipamuhat. Okay lang kay bisaya man akong gigamit, di sila kasabot :D

Hinganlan lang nako ug mga letra para dili kay obvious (giaatay oi, kalimot ko unsay bisaya sa obvious!) Akong gimatyagan katong intsik na katabi ra sad ni Kaloy. Sakto gyud akong gihuna-huna! Nahigugma siya ni K! Tsk, tsk, tsk... Maayo ning google kay naa na silay tigmuna ug mga lain-laing mga lenguahe. Grabe, nabasa nako ang blog atong intsik na babaye! Wahahahaha!!! Sakspan!!! Naa diay plano katong intsik na moagto didto sa P. Niagto gud siya sa konsulado.

Adlaw sa pagkatawo ni Amarantha karon! YeY! Naa kay kumbera!! Kuyog mi nila Adelle ug Cristina karon ^_^. Cge, adto nako!

*sniff*sniff*

I knew I shouldnt have gone skimboarding >:( I got injured and now I cant play in Tacloban :( Of all the luck. We recieved an invitation from them and we have 3 weeks to prepare. Even if I get well in 3 weeks, I still can't play. Oh well... Better luck next time o_O

Waaaahh!!!

I got hurt :(
Now I cant play :(

Evil also starts at home

My brother is so cruel to animals >:( The other day he threw my kitten to a basin full of water and just today he dumped my kitten outside the house hard. His history of cruelty to animals dates back since we were small. There were times he would kick the dogs right to their faces or even threw rocks at them o_O. I think he is adopted. No such cruelty run in our veins like his. I still can not believe we shared the same womb! He is so unlike my father. He is too evil and mean!!! He's a monster!!! I pity his future wife.

My status? I have no idea.

There are rumors that the school would be replacing our coach. Aaahh!! New coach means another try-out o_O. Well, it's okay... I have confidence in myself. I'd make it again to first 11 if ever!!! I'm not really an official varsity player yet though I have played with them in real tournaments already... even included in the first eleven. Uh, does that make me one?? *really clueless & stupid* I really want to be in the varsity! Last year they went to Marikina!! Damn, if I only knew, I would have met Katrina already! Or atleast made some phone calls to any of my friends in Manila.. Well, thats one of the reasons I joined the varsity! They go to many places! I hope I can join them in Davao this year... There is also this scholarship! Weee!! Who wouldn't want a scholarship???

Today, there were only 6 of us. It was fun! But it rained very hard when we were about to play with the guys. We just stopped. I was so silly I ran in the slippery floor with my soccer shoes on. I was trying to go after the ball from falling down the stairs.... eeeeek. I fell, doink! Got some cuts in my arms o_O. It wasn't really bad though. There are just 2 steps in the school canteen. Anyway, I'm just glad to play with my friends today :)

Striving

We practiced today! Just some of us though coz It's unofficial. We are supposed to come back next week but if you want to be better, you need not rely on the coach! So that was it! There was just 10 of us :) And it was fun! We will meet again this Wednesday.

This is just the beginning...

Gee, i thought the game would start at 12:30 so I arrived at 12!! I didnt even have breakfast and lunch coz of that coz I woke up at 10am!
Our game against the team Mulbachs was nice! Though I made a particular silly mistake like scoring a goal for your opponent!! AAAaaghh!! I'll have nightmares!! I hope I wouldnt have a special mention in the newspaper tomorrow o_O'. We had that similar mistake yesterday and it was mentioned specially. It went this way:

"To make matters worse, usc defender Vanessa Amman redirected the ball to her own goal..."

Oh god, I just did something exactly like that!!! AAaaahhh!! Even worse!!! AAaaAAAhHHHH!!!
Anyway, I made it up and defended our goal like mad. Hmmm... it wasn't so tiring anymore... maybe I'm now used to it :D (it really wasnt tiring anymore especially if you'r the one who made that mistake :-L) That's nice! It's really cool playing with opponents who are experienced. And when you get the ball from them, simply heaven. I only have a month experience and our opponents have years experience! And I did my part well :D (just forget that mistake I dont wanna remember, ok?) Oh yeah, the score is 0-4 LOL. I felt responsible for the 1st one too.. and the 2nd, I did it for them LOOOOL ---AaaHHH!! EEeeeek.

We are not sad. It's a learning experience and I learned a lot! (Yeah, i should be lol) Anyway, we are just giving them chance to beat us now coz later they wouldnt be able to do that anymore ;) Just wait and see.

Feeling...!!!

LOL the game started at 12:30 LoooL. Of course, me late :P. I arrived past 1. Bwahahahaha! It was so funny in the game. I think I was the only one enjoying it LOL. I was like laughing all the way in when I went in the 2nd-half. Maybe it was just the effect of the sun-block lol... nah :P. But I was so quiet when the game ended though. Yep, we lost but I dont know whats our score lol. I wasn't able to keep track of it or asked my friends :)) I just realized it when I was on my way home :P. After the game, we went malling! Weeeee! I forgot I didnt have lunch but I ate ice cream and halo-halo!! It was fun to eat with your friends :). The food is more delicious when with them. There were some misunderstandings in our team but I dunno... some of my team mates were annoyed with other players in our team. Hmmm.. I'm too happy-go-lucky to care... Well, forgetting all that... yeah, we went malling... till we dropped. It was so fun having a joy ride in the elevators!! We took pictures of us in it too!!

Oink oink

Bwahahahahaha!!! Guess what?! We lost. And the nice thing was coach brought us to a barbecue restaurant and paid all expenses - gosh, unlimited!! Would you believe that? It was like eat-all-you-can!!!!!!!! Imagine 20 hungry girls ordering like mad... we have no shame.
We gonna have a game tomorrow at Ayala at 1:30. We gonna get fried (literally & figuratively), but it's okay! Life goes on. Tomorrow, we are not going to win... but I still do believe in miracles :D

Our team is new. The oldest in the team just had a year and a half experience and 3 are just babies... lol, I'm a baby! Weee! Tomorrow's game, we gonna battle against the veterans, the experienced ones. They were former varsity players in USC... now what do u think of that?
My last game's performance was good so during the line-up the coach assigned me first as right midfielder coz he saw my kick was strong last game (mind you, it was just a timing! lol) but I decline coz LOOOOOOL I'm not that good yet, u know. Like, hello? I just got into football last month! I don't have the skills yet. So he assigned me as the right winger (to replace the player who had gotten injured and I was kinda honored coz the one whom I replaced is a really good player). And that was even worst, lol. I told coach I just wanted to be in the defense! I'm not ready to attack yet!! But hell, never mind....

Well, i just played during the first half. I thought my feet had been fried coz of the intense heat. I really prayed that coach wouldnt let me play in the second half anymore! Aaaahhh!!! I'm not solar-powered!! I wasn't even doing a good job, anyway. In other words, I sucked! Plus, the heat is draining my energy. My skin is so dark already!!! But anyway, it would still be okay if he would let me play, provided he would put me back in the defense. But I was just glad to be watching the game... in the shade... with water... sitting...

Damn, my energy alone is spent just surviving under the sun!!! I am so dark brownish red now!! LOL. Tomorrow will be even worst... 1:30??? Isnt that... suicide? Okay, I can do it. Ah, even if I can't do it, I WILL do it!! For the love of the game....lol.

Insomnia?

Ugh... I couldn't go back to sleep o_O. All I could think of were my mistakes in the match! The things that I could have done.. the things that I should and shouldn't have done... they are haunting me!!!! AAAAaaaaaahhhh!!!!!!! I want a rematch, NOW!!! Errr...it's almost 4 o clock in the morning. Oh, well...

My first... ugh.

Waaaah!! Lost... 0-2. Eeeeek! But it's okay ^_^ Atleast I did a good job in my part (they said so :P) I was kinda nervous at first but I got over it. All the while I was conserving energy!! Whew, I thought I couldnt make it. I'm still new unlike the old varsity players, they have the stamina and endurance. Well..me too.. but still... But the thing is, I did survive! I completed the 80 minutes!! Weeee! Anyway, I was just playing in the defense. Not so much running unlike the attackers. Our goalkeeper is new too! Just like me :) And 1 of our forwards is new also :)
It was so hot! Really o_O. Early in the game when the sun was still shining up so brightly, our feet felt so hot!! It was like we were stepping the grounds of hell. It seemed like I was wearing an oven instead of shoes! We started playing at 3 o'clock. Good thing we weren't scheduled to play at 1:30!!! I would die if that was so... Mother was shocked to see me so dark when I arrived home. She said she would buy me sun-block :P

I was so naive I just knew what an offside meant only during the 2nd half!! LOL. I'm not so familiar with the technicalities yet. All the while in the first half I was wondering what they were saying... "off side!!" Hmmm... And I just knew how to pass properly the ball when it is out. Damn, I really didnt know!! Aaaahhhh!!!! But I know now ;)

In the 1st half, it was a tie... but during the 2nd-half, I dont know... it went bad. Two of our players were injured. But it's a relaxing part for me coz they didnt attack to my side anymore (LOL the coach said so... coz it would not be a nice idea if they did :P) -Haha. Hmm, I didn't know about that. LOL thats why I wasnt so tired... I never knew I did a good job not until the game was over LOL. All the while during the game, I thought I blew it o_O. Life is full of surprises! ^_^

Losing may be hard to the old players in the varsity... but it isnt so to me... well, not yet. Afterall, it's just my first time :) Anyway, I learned a lot!!! It really wasn't so bad. Someone just had to win. Cagayan de Oro is really a good team. There are still other matches. We only need 1 win to be included in the quarter finals. Our next game is on Wednesday against a team from Ormoc. This time, we will win it.

I'm so excited! This is my first tournament and it's gonna be a nice challenge! We gonna play against Cagayan de Oro. I'm in the left-back position. I'm not left-handed though :P but it's okay coz I'm practicing my left side how to kick and I'm doing a good job! ^_^ They say the Cagayan team is really good. Well, it's okay if we lose but it's more better if we win!! Anyway, whatever we do, it's always for the sake of winning! So be it.

Of Love & Passion

I don't know how am I gonna tell this... this is so new to me... so new that even I myself find it hard to believe that it happened and is happening... Yet I am so happy. I knew like this would happen to me, but I never expected something like this would really happen. It happened so fast thatI didnt see it coming. Something expected... but unexpected in a way. The things that I used to dream of is now happening in reality and is happening still. Omg, I think I'm in love!!! :O

LOL, I'm just talking about football :P Bwahahahaha!!!

It was just by chance, eeeek!

After the game, I was suprised they were so impressed! The alumni kept on talking about me. (codename Girl Scout lol) The coach had this big grin on his face ("If only all of you were Mabille..." LOoooL) If they had not tell I would not have known I just made a performance out there in the field!! I was just being myself ;)

Last Monday, the varsity and the alumni had a practice game and I was the only new face left out. During the middle of the game, I was to substitute a player in the defense. Coz this player in the defense line made lots of mistakes. I never played defense before. Coach usually assigned me in the wing but I never did an excellent job there yet coz I still havent mastered controlling the ball. So there I went to replace the player... and there it all started!!

Coz of that, I'm now included in the 1st 11 of the USC Ladies' football varsity team :D

...well, earlier than expected! :P

Liver Thickens...

Why is everyone calling me genius?! I've got used to it and it somehow went into my system. Sometimes I find it embarrassing though. When people ask me how I do it... And questions like why I am so amazing... I dont know... I just do things as it is and it just comes off naturally. Now my friends in the varsity are calling me "Gifted-child". I'm used to flattery and complements but sometimes it just gets so embarrassing. I dont know how to respond to situations like that sometimes. LOL I'm not complaining. I'm just thinking out loud. Hey, I just want to be the best and I know I am doing a good job at it. Anyway, I dont blame them :P I also am amazed with myself sometimes. Oh god, now you really would think I really am conceited :)) Am I still normal? Sorry, I couldnt help it. I just have to express this off :P

Yeah, assuming kaayo ko, grabe!!!

*Pondering*

Oh! bloggie dearest,

Skimming is fun... but why do I have to repeat all things from the very beginning? It's not so fun as before anymore! And seeing a surfing show on tv is not helping... I'm good at it though../ but I dont know... I hate myself! What do I want?

I skated today (skateboard), it was fun... but it would have been more fun if only I was still 12.

I dont know... I'm good at every sport I take! The type that advances quickly to a higher level. Hey, I am not boasting, ok? The only thing is I am always starting! I never stay too long on a sport :(

I feel so wasted. Amarantha says it's because of my way of thinking. No, it's not it, I know. If it's my way of thinking, I wouldnt have been telling these things... I wouldnt have done those things...

I guess living in a 3rd world has got something to do with this, eh?

Each has its own circumstances, I dont blame myself. It's not because I didnt try my best.

Yeah, right. Life sucks. Yeeaaah riiiiiiiiiight. *hits herself with a sledgehammer* doink!

Weee!!

Lingaw kaayo ang skim!!!!!!!! Grabe, gahapon natagbaw mi ug dinuwa!!! Nang-order na biya mi ni Adelle ug skimboard!!! Grabe na gyud! Seryoso biya mi do!! Dayon kung ma'y na ka'y ko s'tanan ba, mopalit ko atong tag 1200 pesos! Lingaw jud kaayo, bisan naparalisado na ko karon (gipamaulan ba), but what can i say? it's all worth it LOL. Basta excited na ka'y ko igsunod na Sabado!!! Skim na sad mi balik!!! Ma'y ra ba ka'y ko na!! Simply au natural... Ako 'tong panglabwan tanan na mga lalake didto!! ok ok, nihangin na...

Iset

Namatay si lolo pagka binti-kuwatro sa Enero. Nagatan.aw ra man ko ato ug salida! Naa ko ila Adelle naga.istambay sa ilahang balay. Ulahi na kaayo nabasa nako ang gitext ni mama. Niapas pa kunohay ko didto sa Chung Hua -wala na diay. Karon, gihaya si lolo didto sa Banilad.

Gabii, nitan.aw mi ug sine kuyog sa akong mga klasmeyt. Lingaw kaayo ang "Panaghoy sa Suba"! Cebuano man gud, nabag.uhan mi! Grabe g'yud. Tungod gud ana, gabinisaya gud ko karon! Hehehe. Kataw.anan kaayo kay naa pay mga subtitle! Kuyaw kaayo. Hala oy, maayo unta nga mo.clik ang mga sugbuanon na mga salida, noh?

I'm so used to not getting what I want. So used to failure, to frustration. So used to having pride wounded. So used to loneliness and heartaches. To shattered dreams and hopes that pain is already a part of me.

But I will never forget that feeling... of making one's existence known. To stand out from the crowd... To face greatness face to face. To push myself to the limits and succeed and reign triumphant. Somehow, I know I shall feel it again. In little things..in little ways... In great things...in special ways... For I know myself better than the rest of the world that I can.

I'm a Loser

I can't even go bowling... I'm left to wash the laundry. Mother says so. Anyhow, I am not angry with her. Why would I? Not to mention I don't have the right... Afterall, we don't have the money today. I know I could go bowling using my own money, but I know by the time I would arrive home is that my mother would be ranting about me going out, having some "fun" while she's left to do laundry and cleaning. Well, I don't want that to happen. Better avoid the worsest of things to happen.... It's whole lot better to listen to an Adelle ranting (for ditching her today), a low class classification in PE, and losing a chance to join capoeira... than a mother's ranting! And plus, I need my own money to buy some materials that I will need in my major subjects sometime in the future. Anyway, I don't deserve to have fun because I am such a bad daughter... I don't blame her. I do not follow my mother's orders right away. Well, that's life. You can't do the things you want even if you have the will. All you need is hard cold CASH.

"Recreational Sport"

>:( Ooooooooh I just hate cross stitch! Waaaah!! I'll never get over it *sniff*sniff* Anyway, I did cross stitch the whole afternoon in the corridor. Yeah..yeah.. it was fun! *take note of the sarcasm* Cross stitch can be so much fun!!! OMG...*gone crazy* Good thing there was this guy in the higher years who kept me accompanied the whole afternoon or else I would have been bored to death. He even bought me bread :)). What the hell, I still have to finish 75% of that damn thing! I thought Feb 15 was the deadline... Damn, I only have 9 days left!!!! Whatta..whatta.. *imagines herself doing some stitching in the wee hours of the morning* *blink*blink* Impossible.... eeeek!! Well, I WILL MAKE IT!!! DAMN IT ALL TO HELL!! Now I have to make my Layout midterm plate tonight. Deadline is tomorrow! So, gotta get going! But before I go........I wish Carlos a good day ^_^

What Kind of ANGEL are you?
Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but Pure
ones simply are symbols of God. Pure Angels always
appear when a child is born, when a rainbow is seen,
or when someone shares their first kiss. They never
grow old, an can appear in the shape of a naked woman
with white, bold wings. Pure angels are the carriers
of god, and show their love to everyone in the world.
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Memories

Amarantha recited some of her poetry today. Her poems are really beautiful. She recites poetry very well too. I've always been a fan of hers. A very multi-talented person -gifted with so many abilities but on the other hand, those gifts made her big-headed and over-confident. Too bad... Now she's wasting her education. Anyway, I know she'll come to her senses someday. It's useless saying things to her coz she already knows. Well, there are always things in life that are to be learned first hand.

Memories

Remember the dawn and the twilight
The raindrops and the canopy
The soothening touch of the moonlight
The old forgotten melody

Remember the dreams and the passion
The music the dance and the feast
The voice of the wind and the ocean
The clouds and winds from west and east

Doesn't it seem like an illusion?
Just like a picture of a dream
Just like a dim-remembered vision
Just like the rushes of a stream

I hear the whisper of memories
They are like songs and lullabies
Arise in my heart all symphonies
Of heaven's blue eternal skies

~Amarantha Celeste Tapia y Bandillo

Only Human

Why is there always something to be insecure about?

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child. Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

How Is Your Inner Child?

Crowning Glory

Yesterday was fun! Did some body painting ^_^. I just had a bad time afterwards... o_O. It was torture! Anyway, forgetting all that, next year I'm gonna do some real business! I definitely gonna use my advertising skills. *grin*

Hmmm...I'd like to color my hair red..I thought of pink but it's kind of ridiculous... but.. black hair is black hair. You cant color on black! It's just freaky. And red hair doesnt go well with brown skin! I just envy the white girls. They can color their hair whatever they want! Well, we just have to be contented with our silky black hair :D

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT) You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

The Three Question Personality Test

Sinulog 2005

Viva! Pit Señor!

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Perpetually Contemplating

I hate pimples! When will these pimples go away? Waaaah!! They're still in my face :((. Mother said that it will disappear sooner or later... Adelle said that it's not obvious and she didnt even notice it until I told them so.....and my brother just asked me why I keep on looking at the mirror. I am not vain I am not vain I am not vaaiiiiin.

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You have a passion for everything - including sleeping. Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well. You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to hog the covers. You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

Whatta...

They have no idea.

Simply My Day

What. A. Day. Too many things happened… A little too much for one day… Exhausting, but in a way, good. Now, I’m sleepy. Good night!

You Are Balanced - Realist - Powerful

You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally. You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go. Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control. Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow. You are a realist when it comes to luck. You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random. You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you... But you do your best to try to make your own luck. When it comes to who's in charge, it's you. Life is a kingdom, and you're the grand ruler. You don't care much about what others think. But they better care what you think!

The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test

The Plate

Alas! I’ve finished my “first” plate in Lettering!! OMG, it is so cute!! Oh, cute is an understatement. I’d say that it’s full of creativity and worth a perfect score if it wasn’t my artwork, but nah, let’s be a little discreet. Let’s not use those words of positive appraisal on one’s self. So I shall humble myself and be content to calling it cute. It’s really cute, I just cant deny… hehehe. I’d never get a perfect score for it, anyhow, anyway. It’s 2 months late.

Ah, I never thought my campaign against procrastination would go smoothly as planned :D I was supposed to make the plate tomorrow but, gosh, miracles do happen o_O… well, not really… my ReEd study was compromised in the process ^^; I was supposed to study ReEd & Filipino coz the exam will be tomorrow. What the hell. Well, anyway, good thing I’m GENIUS. I can still perfect the exam…Yeah!!! Ok, I’m just kidding about the genius part :P Hmm.. What else? Oh yeah, I bought watercolour paper!! Me gonna do some watercolour painting this weekend! Weeee!!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

New Born

YeY! I have studied last night! It was impossible, but I survived.. :D Not only that, I also made my first and second plate in Lettering! They arent finished yet but I plan to finish them tomorrow. They're supposed to be passed last year but.. you know.. bwahahahaha! Ok, forget it... Now, I am new born. Better late than never ;) This year, I am going to make things straight! I am going to perfect all the exaaaaams!! LOL, I better be... I have to make up for the homeworks that I didnt make or else I would have no grade...!!! ^^; PROCRASTINATION SHOULD BE STOPPED!!!

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

The Practice

Carlos says I write too much. Okay.
Yesterday, my friends came and we practiced.
After that, they went home and I did some cross stitch.
I shall study now. I have an exam tomorrow.

The Ultimate Fairy Quiz
You are like the light fairy. She believes only in comfort and happiness. She has the power to make people happy and comfortable in the darkest of times. She loves all beings equally, but when she is not needed, she can also be annoying, she follows people, and is too much of a goody goody, and can drive people nuts!!!!!!!! That is all the major things about the Light fairy. can you relate to some of them? You probably can, because that is what this quiz is for!
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P.E. Rantings

My classmates gonna come here at our house at 1:30! OMG, I have to clean my roooom o_O. We gonna practice dancing "Totoy Bibo" for our Midterm in Physical education. Yesterday, I spent the whole afternoon doing a school project: Cross Stitiching o_O I like cross stitch...but not in this period of my life!! You know what class that required this project? Guess what?! Nah, never mind. You'd never be able to guess, anway... It's Physical Education. God. Imagine doing some sewing stuff in that class. It's so unfair!! Only girls got to do the pathetic stitching while boys are having basketball and some sports in their P.E.!! I hate theeeeeeeem!! They are ruining my liiiiiiiiiiiiife!! I want to play too... :( I still do not (and WILL NEVER) understand why we are doing cross stitch!! Yeah, our P.E. this semester is all about Recreational Activities but it meant sports, not some crafts!! You know, sorts like bowling, hiking, wall climbing, bungee jumping, etc... not SEWING!! It's Physical Education for chrissakes! It's not Home Economics. And last year, we were required to donate some bundles of joy for the poor. We were also required to make some programs to give entertainment to them too. Now it's some ReEd thing. Yeah, very physically educating, no? What the hell is WRONG with them, people?!

Which of the Deadly Sins are You?
You are Envy! Wow... what a dreamer. Always wanting what you can't have, and always dreaming of having more then you do. It's not the worst sin, and we're all guilty of it - but you take it to the extreme! You are prone to depression, often from things you can't obtain. Be a bit more positive, you have a lot that others want too - so don't sit there being all green! On the positive side, you tend to be a smart person - and can often achieve the goals you set yourself. Congratulations on being the overall harmless, and pretty normal one of the 7 deadly sins :)
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Phones & Siestas

Ah... my classmates didn't come. First, Adelle smsed asking what time they would come here and I phoned her saying that they had to be here at 1:30. During the conversation, she begged to cancel today's practice and make it tomorrow instead. I see there's no problem in it so I said that it's okay provided she'd be the one to inform the rest of our group mates. So I went on with my life and did an early siesta. In the middle of my nap, someone phoned. Ugh, I hate it when someone phones when you are sleeping and that you have to pick it up o_O. It was Adelle...again. She said they were coming. Okay, fine, there was a change of plans. And I asked her "Why?!" It was more like why she had to wake me up o_O Maybe she had sense my irritation and asked me about my "why?!" It wouldn’t matter anyway if they came w/out calling. Anyway, I love surprises... and I told her that I was napping x_x. That settles it. Anyway, I ended the conversation and went back to sleep. Minutes later, the phone rang again. Damn. "Why won't the world leave me alone?" It was quarter to 1:30. On the phone was Cristina saying that we had to cancel today's practice coz she didn’t have the music yet. The hell I care... Let me go back to my bed!! OMG. I nearly blow it up on her o_O. Anyway, I miraculously endured those seconds of conversation listening to her very "shoooort" explanation and went back napping. Zzz...

In the afternoon, I found out that it's not a good idea to do your cross stitch and watch an ice skating competition at the same time. There's simply no future in it. It took me 2 hours for me to realize that. Ugh, cross stitch. I now only have 1 month to finish that damn project!! It's small in size... but I don’t have the enough estrogen to finish it. I just couldn’t get over that it's only the girls that are doing it >:(. Why can’t I play too!?! Haven’t they heard of "PE" student exchange programs? I know that they are some feminine guys who would love to exchange places with me too *_*.

In the evening, my brother and I watched the movie "Hidalgo". It was a great movie about an American racing with a painted horsey in the desert. It was very touching that I dreamed of the middleast afterwards, lol. I remember myself in the dream doing some erotic dance moves in one of the "scenes" -what the hell! I can remember most of my cousins died in my dream coz we joined the "Ocean of Fire". A grueling 3,000-mile survival race across punishing terrain of the Arabian desert. Again, what the hell...!!! LOLz.

What Type Of Girl Are You?
Your like an angel. You possess love and bring love to any thing or person. You love being yourself. Even though you are cute or not. I think you're just awesome. Like you are peace :)
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My Dream Home

I want to live in a cozy little 2-storey cottage. It will be facing the meadow and at the back of it will be the woods or forest. It is solar-powered and a generator is used at night.

Exterior

The place must experience the 4 seasons: spring, summer, autumn, and winter. So therefore, it must have a chimney and Santa should be able to squeeze himself into it. The fireplace should be made out of those old-fashioned clay bricks. The roof is made of those hard clay things and the structure is triangular in shape.

Near my house is a lake. During winter it will freeze and I’ll go skating in it when I feel like it! Beside my house is a small little pond where lilies and lotus float. And there will be those famous floating big leaves that frogs hop unto.

There will be a rose garden in the front yard and even though I hate vegetables I will have a vegetable garden at side of the house. My children have to eat vegetables in addition to their healthy diet whether they like it or not. Good thing I am already master in cooking by that time so they will be begging for it anyway… no sweat! (I took culinary arts in some country. I haven’t decided yet what country I have been to though…)

The wooden fence that surrounds the house is only 3 feet tall and the edges are not sharp and it is painted with a pastel color. Along with it will be planted with sunflowers. There will be a nice mailbox in the door gate that is similar to the ones I saw in the movie “Little Women”

Interior

Living Room
During Christmas, I will have a pine tree that is freshly cut from the woods and it will be placed near the fireplace. It will be adorned by Christmas decors or just anything that I could think of. I shall take note to remember to decorate it with those talked-about gold & silver spider webs. There will be lots of gifts under the tree of different sizes and shapes that are personally chosen and wrapped by me for all my relatives and friends. I will also include little souvenir gifts for passers-by. There will always be a big bowl full of sweets for Christmas carolers. Big Christmas socks are hung in the fireplace and they are filled with toys and goodies. There will be an empty sack for Santa in case he drops in.

The fireplace is in the living room (the other one is in the kitchen which is small, btw) and the room floor will be covered with oriental carpets with their intricate designs to match. Oh, I also want to have a head of a dead deer in the wall above the fireplace if it’s okay… By the way, somewhere in the walls is a framed autograph of Akira Toriyama (creator of Dragonball/Z)

I will change curtains every change of season in accordance to its theme. Like during spring I might want to have pastel curtains with flowery designs. I will draw the designs for each season and put it here if ever I have the time, ok?

Bedrooms (2nd floor)
The second floor has four rooms. They are not so big and the walls in the corridor have shelves full of books categorized from top to bottom. I can’t have a library because there is no enough space!

The master bedroom is in the right wing. It will have its own bathroom and it shall have a tub of course and the bathroom tiles have drawings in it. I would like to have a built-in TV inside or sound system but I find it extravagant. I can always bring my music player and those little speakers inside, eh? So I’ll make sure there is an outlet in the bathroom! I don’t want to waste money on unnecessary things even if I am already a millionaire by that time.

The room connected next to will be a studio-office-museum. This one will be much bigger. This is not a mansion so I have to make use of the space wisely. This is a three-in-one room. It is where I paint and do some art stuff and it will also serve to house some of my finished artworks, some of my collections and also of my husband’s if ever he has one. It will be displayed in a glass shelf directly connected to the wall from top to bottom. The other collections are displayed in the living room by the way. In one corner of the room is a desk with many drawers and beside it is a still cabinet where we put important documents in. On top of it is a safety deposit box. That corner will serve as our “office”.

Attic & Basement
There will be an attic where the old stuff is put. It is also where my children play when it is too cold to play outside. There, they will tell stories, play hide-&-seek, role play, or anything they could just think of. I am still thinking of having a basement… Oh yeah, I should have. It will serve as storage and also where the tools and equipments are kept, and or perhaps where my husband’s wine collection is placed (if ever he has one or whatever collection he will have)

Communication & Transportation
There will be a state-of-the-art computer with unlimited internet access and other unlimited whatsoever. I will only have to pay subscription annually. Probably I would have something like Intel Centrino or whatever is latest by that time. Unfortunately, there will be no telephone coz there are no telephone lines in the woods, but good thing there will be a satellite phone! I will have no car coz there are no big roads in the meadow or in the woods. If ever I have a car, I‘d likely to accidentally run over a rabbit or a deer, no! So better not have one… I will only have a helicopter and a hot balloon. I will buy a bike too.

Animals
For pets, I will have a kitten, a puppy, a turtle, and a piglet! They will grow together and become best friends forever. The kitten, piglet and puppy stays inside the house while the turtle can stay inside or outside in the pond! The kitten will grow into a big lazy cat; the dog will be faithful and serve as guardian when we are asleep. The turtle will see us grow old. The pig when it dies I will give it a decent funeral… Anyway, I am still thinking whether we would eat the pig or just bury it…After all, he has been our pet, hmmm?

To be Continued...

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I didn’t put some of the details like how many windows or the location of the lamp shades are coz it might take you until tomorrow to finish reading this. I will be constantly updating this entry for I haven’t written about some things about the kitchen and some of the bedrooms. I'll put mure details to some parts too. I know I forgot some! I remember many things too but I’m now too lazy to write it. I’ll just update this entry from time to time, ok!!