Iset

Namatay si lolo pagka binti-kuwatro sa Enero. Nagatan.aw ra man ko ato ug salida! Naa ko ila Adelle naga.istambay sa ilahang balay. Ulahi na kaayo nabasa nako ang gitext ni mama. Niapas pa kunohay ko didto sa Chung Hua -wala na diay. Karon, gihaya si lolo didto sa Banilad.

Gabii, nitan.aw mi ug sine kuyog sa akong mga klasmeyt. Lingaw kaayo ang "Panaghoy sa Suba"! Cebuano man gud, nabag.uhan mi! Grabe g'yud. Tungod gud ana, gabinisaya gud ko karon! Hehehe. Kataw.anan kaayo kay naa pay mga subtitle! Kuyaw kaayo. Hala oy, maayo unta nga mo.clik ang mga sugbuanon na mga salida, noh?

I'm so used to not getting what I want. So used to failure, to frustration. So used to having pride wounded. So used to loneliness and heartaches. To shattered dreams and hopes that pain is already a part of me.

But I will never forget that feeling... of making one's existence known. To stand out from the crowd... To face greatness face to face. To push myself to the limits and succeed and reign triumphant. Somehow, I know I shall feel it again. In little things..in little ways... In great things...in special ways... For I know myself better than the rest of the world that I can.

I'm a Loser

I can't even go bowling... I'm left to wash the laundry. Mother says so. Anyhow, I am not angry with her. Why would I? Not to mention I don't have the right... Afterall, we don't have the money today. I know I could go bowling using my own money, but I know by the time I would arrive home is that my mother would be ranting about me going out, having some "fun" while she's left to do laundry and cleaning. Well, I don't want that to happen. Better avoid the worsest of things to happen.... It's whole lot better to listen to an Adelle ranting (for ditching her today), a low class classification in PE, and losing a chance to join capoeira... than a mother's ranting! And plus, I need my own money to buy some materials that I will need in my major subjects sometime in the future. Anyway, I don't deserve to have fun because I am such a bad daughter... I don't blame her. I do not follow my mother's orders right away. Well, that's life. You can't do the things you want even if you have the will. All you need is hard cold CASH.

"Recreational Sport"

>:( Ooooooooh I just hate cross stitch! Waaaah!! I'll never get over it *sniff*sniff* Anyway, I did cross stitch the whole afternoon in the corridor. Yeah..yeah.. it was fun! *take note of the sarcasm* Cross stitch can be so much fun!!! OMG...*gone crazy* Good thing there was this guy in the higher years who kept me accompanied the whole afternoon or else I would have been bored to death. He even bought me bread :)). What the hell, I still have to finish 75% of that damn thing! I thought Feb 15 was the deadline... Damn, I only have 9 days left!!!! Whatta..whatta.. *imagines herself doing some stitching in the wee hours of the morning* *blink*blink* Impossible.... eeeek!! Well, I WILL MAKE IT!!! DAMN IT ALL TO HELL!! Now I have to make my Layout midterm plate tonight. Deadline is tomorrow! So, gotta get going! But before I go........I wish Carlos a good day ^_^

What Kind of ANGEL are you?
Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but Pure
ones simply are symbols of God. Pure Angels always
appear when a child is born, when a rainbow is seen,
or when someone shares their first kiss. They never
grow old, an can appear in the shape of a naked woman
with white, bold wings. Pure angels are the carriers
of god, and show their love to everyone in the world.
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Memories

Amarantha recited some of her poetry today. Her poems are really beautiful. She recites poetry very well too. I've always been a fan of hers. A very multi-talented person -gifted with so many abilities but on the other hand, those gifts made her big-headed and over-confident. Too bad... Now she's wasting her education. Anyway, I know she'll come to her senses someday. It's useless saying things to her coz she already knows. Well, there are always things in life that are to be learned first hand.

Memories

Remember the dawn and the twilight
The raindrops and the canopy
The soothening touch of the moonlight
The old forgotten melody

Remember the dreams and the passion
The music the dance and the feast
The voice of the wind and the ocean
The clouds and winds from west and east

Doesn't it seem like an illusion?
Just like a picture of a dream
Just like a dim-remembered vision
Just like the rushes of a stream

I hear the whisper of memories
They are like songs and lullabies
Arise in my heart all symphonies
Of heaven's blue eternal skies

~Amarantha Celeste Tapia y Bandillo

Only Human

Why is there always something to be insecure about?

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child. Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

How Is Your Inner Child?

Crowning Glory

Yesterday was fun! Did some body painting ^_^. I just had a bad time afterwards... o_O. It was torture! Anyway, forgetting all that, next year I'm gonna do some real business! I definitely gonna use my advertising skills. *grin*

Hmmm...I'd like to color my hair red..I thought of pink but it's kind of ridiculous... but.. black hair is black hair. You cant color on black! It's just freaky. And red hair doesnt go well with brown skin! I just envy the white girls. They can color their hair whatever they want! Well, we just have to be contented with our silky black hair :D

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT) You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

The Three Question Personality Test

Sinulog 2005

Viva! Pit Señor!

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Perpetually Contemplating

I hate pimples! When will these pimples go away? Waaaah!! They're still in my face :((. Mother said that it will disappear sooner or later... Adelle said that it's not obvious and she didnt even notice it until I told them so.....and my brother just asked me why I keep on looking at the mirror. I am not vain I am not vain I am not vaaiiiiin.

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You have a passion for everything - including sleeping. Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well. You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to hog the covers. You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

Whatta...

They have no idea.

Simply My Day

What. A. Day. Too many things happened… A little too much for one day… Exhausting, but in a way, good. Now, I’m sleepy. Good night!

You Are Balanced - Realist - Powerful

You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally. You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go. Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control. Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow. You are a realist when it comes to luck. You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random. You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you... But you do your best to try to make your own luck. When it comes to who's in charge, it's you. Life is a kingdom, and you're the grand ruler. You don't care much about what others think. But they better care what you think!

The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test

The Plate

Alas! I’ve finished my “first” plate in Lettering!! OMG, it is so cute!! Oh, cute is an understatement. I’d say that it’s full of creativity and worth a perfect score if it wasn’t my artwork, but nah, let’s be a little discreet. Let’s not use those words of positive appraisal on one’s self. So I shall humble myself and be content to calling it cute. It’s really cute, I just cant deny… hehehe. I’d never get a perfect score for it, anyhow, anyway. It’s 2 months late.

Ah, I never thought my campaign against procrastination would go smoothly as planned :D I was supposed to make the plate tomorrow but, gosh, miracles do happen o_O… well, not really… my ReEd study was compromised in the process ^^; I was supposed to study ReEd & Filipino coz the exam will be tomorrow. What the hell. Well, anyway, good thing I’m GENIUS. I can still perfect the exam…Yeah!!! Ok, I’m just kidding about the genius part :P Hmm.. What else? Oh yeah, I bought watercolour paper!! Me gonna do some watercolour painting this weekend! Weeee!!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

New Born

YeY! I have studied last night! It was impossible, but I survived.. :D Not only that, I also made my first and second plate in Lettering! They arent finished yet but I plan to finish them tomorrow. They're supposed to be passed last year but.. you know.. bwahahahaha! Ok, forget it... Now, I am new born. Better late than never ;) This year, I am going to make things straight! I am going to perfect all the exaaaaams!! LOL, I better be... I have to make up for the homeworks that I didnt make or else I would have no grade...!!! ^^; PROCRASTINATION SHOULD BE STOPPED!!!

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

The Practice

Carlos says I write too much. Okay.
Yesterday, my friends came and we practiced.
After that, they went home and I did some cross stitch.
I shall study now. I have an exam tomorrow.

The Ultimate Fairy Quiz
You are like the light fairy. She believes only in comfort and happiness. She has the power to make people happy and comfortable in the darkest of times. She loves all beings equally, but when she is not needed, she can also be annoying, she follows people, and is too much of a goody goody, and can drive people nuts!!!!!!!! That is all the major things about the Light fairy. can you relate to some of them? You probably can, because that is what this quiz is for!
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P.E. Rantings

My classmates gonna come here at our house at 1:30! OMG, I have to clean my roooom o_O. We gonna practice dancing "Totoy Bibo" for our Midterm in Physical education. Yesterday, I spent the whole afternoon doing a school project: Cross Stitiching o_O I like cross stitch...but not in this period of my life!! You know what class that required this project? Guess what?! Nah, never mind. You'd never be able to guess, anway... It's Physical Education. God. Imagine doing some sewing stuff in that class. It's so unfair!! Only girls got to do the pathetic stitching while boys are having basketball and some sports in their P.E.!! I hate theeeeeeeem!! They are ruining my liiiiiiiiiiiiife!! I want to play too... :( I still do not (and WILL NEVER) understand why we are doing cross stitch!! Yeah, our P.E. this semester is all about Recreational Activities but it meant sports, not some crafts!! You know, sorts like bowling, hiking, wall climbing, bungee jumping, etc... not SEWING!! It's Physical Education for chrissakes! It's not Home Economics. And last year, we were required to donate some bundles of joy for the poor. We were also required to make some programs to give entertainment to them too. Now it's some ReEd thing. Yeah, very physically educating, no? What the hell is WRONG with them, people?!

Which of the Deadly Sins are You?
You are Envy! Wow... what a dreamer. Always wanting what you can't have, and always dreaming of having more then you do. It's not the worst sin, and we're all guilty of it - but you take it to the extreme! You are prone to depression, often from things you can't obtain. Be a bit more positive, you have a lot that others want too - so don't sit there being all green! On the positive side, you tend to be a smart person - and can often achieve the goals you set yourself. Congratulations on being the overall harmless, and pretty normal one of the 7 deadly sins :)
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Phones & Siestas

Ah... my classmates didn't come. First, Adelle smsed asking what time they would come here and I phoned her saying that they had to be here at 1:30. During the conversation, she begged to cancel today's practice and make it tomorrow instead. I see there's no problem in it so I said that it's okay provided she'd be the one to inform the rest of our group mates. So I went on with my life and did an early siesta. In the middle of my nap, someone phoned. Ugh, I hate it when someone phones when you are sleeping and that you have to pick it up o_O. It was Adelle...again. She said they were coming. Okay, fine, there was a change of plans. And I asked her "Why?!" It was more like why she had to wake me up o_O Maybe she had sense my irritation and asked me about my "why?!" It wouldn’t matter anyway if they came w/out calling. Anyway, I love surprises... and I told her that I was napping x_x. That settles it. Anyway, I ended the conversation and went back to sleep. Minutes later, the phone rang again. Damn. "Why won't the world leave me alone?" It was quarter to 1:30. On the phone was Cristina saying that we had to cancel today's practice coz she didn’t have the music yet. The hell I care... Let me go back to my bed!! OMG. I nearly blow it up on her o_O. Anyway, I miraculously endured those seconds of conversation listening to her very "shoooort" explanation and went back napping. Zzz...

In the afternoon, I found out that it's not a good idea to do your cross stitch and watch an ice skating competition at the same time. There's simply no future in it. It took me 2 hours for me to realize that. Ugh, cross stitch. I now only have 1 month to finish that damn project!! It's small in size... but I don’t have the enough estrogen to finish it. I just couldn’t get over that it's only the girls that are doing it >:(. Why can’t I play too!?! Haven’t they heard of "PE" student exchange programs? I know that they are some feminine guys who would love to exchange places with me too *_*.

In the evening, my brother and I watched the movie "Hidalgo". It was a great movie about an American racing with a painted horsey in the desert. It was very touching that I dreamed of the middleast afterwards, lol. I remember myself in the dream doing some erotic dance moves in one of the "scenes" -what the hell! I can remember most of my cousins died in my dream coz we joined the "Ocean of Fire". A grueling 3,000-mile survival race across punishing terrain of the Arabian desert. Again, what the hell...!!! LOLz.

What Type Of Girl Are You?
Your like an angel. You possess love and bring love to any thing or person. You love being yourself. Even though you are cute or not. I think you're just awesome. Like you are peace :)
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My Dream Home

I want to live in a cozy little 2-storey cottage. It will be facing the meadow and at the back of it will be the woods or forest. It is solar-powered and a generator is used at night.

Exterior

The place must experience the 4 seasons: spring, summer, autumn, and winter. So therefore, it must have a chimney and Santa should be able to squeeze himself into it. The fireplace should be made out of those old-fashioned clay bricks. The roof is made of those hard clay things and the structure is triangular in shape.

Near my house is a lake. During winter it will freeze and I’ll go skating in it when I feel like it! Beside my house is a small little pond where lilies and lotus float. And there will be those famous floating big leaves that frogs hop unto.

There will be a rose garden in the front yard and even though I hate vegetables I will have a vegetable garden at side of the house. My children have to eat vegetables in addition to their healthy diet whether they like it or not. Good thing I am already master in cooking by that time so they will be begging for it anyway… no sweat! (I took culinary arts in some country. I haven’t decided yet what country I have been to though…)

The wooden fence that surrounds the house is only 3 feet tall and the edges are not sharp and it is painted with a pastel color. Along with it will be planted with sunflowers. There will be a nice mailbox in the door gate that is similar to the ones I saw in the movie “Little Women”

Interior

Living Room
During Christmas, I will have a pine tree that is freshly cut from the woods and it will be placed near the fireplace. It will be adorned by Christmas decors or just anything that I could think of. I shall take note to remember to decorate it with those talked-about gold & silver spider webs. There will be lots of gifts under the tree of different sizes and shapes that are personally chosen and wrapped by me for all my relatives and friends. I will also include little souvenir gifts for passers-by. There will always be a big bowl full of sweets for Christmas carolers. Big Christmas socks are hung in the fireplace and they are filled with toys and goodies. There will be an empty sack for Santa in case he drops in.

The fireplace is in the living room (the other one is in the kitchen which is small, btw) and the room floor will be covered with oriental carpets with their intricate designs to match. Oh, I also want to have a head of a dead deer in the wall above the fireplace if it’s okay… By the way, somewhere in the walls is a framed autograph of Akira Toriyama (creator of Dragonball/Z)

I will change curtains every change of season in accordance to its theme. Like during spring I might want to have pastel curtains with flowery designs. I will draw the designs for each season and put it here if ever I have the time, ok?

Bedrooms (2nd floor)
The second floor has four rooms. They are not so big and the walls in the corridor have shelves full of books categorized from top to bottom. I can’t have a library because there is no enough space!

The master bedroom is in the right wing. It will have its own bathroom and it shall have a tub of course and the bathroom tiles have drawings in it. I would like to have a built-in TV inside or sound system but I find it extravagant. I can always bring my music player and those little speakers inside, eh? So I’ll make sure there is an outlet in the bathroom! I don’t want to waste money on unnecessary things even if I am already a millionaire by that time.

The room connected next to will be a studio-office-museum. This one will be much bigger. This is not a mansion so I have to make use of the space wisely. This is a three-in-one room. It is where I paint and do some art stuff and it will also serve to house some of my finished artworks, some of my collections and also of my husband’s if ever he has one. It will be displayed in a glass shelf directly connected to the wall from top to bottom. The other collections are displayed in the living room by the way. In one corner of the room is a desk with many drawers and beside it is a still cabinet where we put important documents in. On top of it is a safety deposit box. That corner will serve as our “office”.

Attic & Basement
There will be an attic where the old stuff is put. It is also where my children play when it is too cold to play outside. There, they will tell stories, play hide-&-seek, role play, or anything they could just think of. I am still thinking of having a basement… Oh yeah, I should have. It will serve as storage and also where the tools and equipments are kept, and or perhaps where my husband’s wine collection is placed (if ever he has one or whatever collection he will have)

Communication & Transportation
There will be a state-of-the-art computer with unlimited internet access and other unlimited whatsoever. I will only have to pay subscription annually. Probably I would have something like Intel Centrino or whatever is latest by that time. Unfortunately, there will be no telephone coz there are no telephone lines in the woods, but good thing there will be a satellite phone! I will have no car coz there are no big roads in the meadow or in the woods. If ever I have a car, I‘d likely to accidentally run over a rabbit or a deer, no! So better not have one… I will only have a helicopter and a hot balloon. I will buy a bike too.

Animals
For pets, I will have a kitten, a puppy, a turtle, and a piglet! They will grow together and become best friends forever. The kitten, piglet and puppy stays inside the house while the turtle can stay inside or outside in the pond! The kitten will grow into a big lazy cat; the dog will be faithful and serve as guardian when we are asleep. The turtle will see us grow old. The pig when it dies I will give it a decent funeral… Anyway, I am still thinking whether we would eat the pig or just bury it…After all, he has been our pet, hmmm?

To be Continued...

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I didn’t put some of the details like how many windows or the location of the lamp shades are coz it might take you until tomorrow to finish reading this. I will be constantly updating this entry for I haven’t written about some things about the kitchen and some of the bedrooms. I'll put mure details to some parts too. I know I forgot some! I remember many things too but I’m now too lazy to write it. I’ll just update this entry from time to time, ok!!