*Pondering*

Oh! bloggie dearest,

Skimming is fun... but why do I have to repeat all things from the very beginning? It's not so fun as before anymore! And seeing a surfing show on tv is not helping... I'm good at it though../ but I dont know... I hate myself! What do I want?

I skated today (skateboard), it was fun... but it would have been more fun if only I was still 12.

I dont know... I'm good at every sport I take! The type that advances quickly to a higher level. Hey, I am not boasting, ok? The only thing is I am always starting! I never stay too long on a sport :(

I feel so wasted. Amarantha says it's because of my way of thinking. No, it's not it, I know. If it's my way of thinking, I wouldnt have been telling these things... I wouldnt have done those things...

I guess living in a 3rd world has got something to do with this, eh?

Each has its own circumstances, I dont blame myself. It's not because I didnt try my best.

Yeah, right. Life sucks. Yeeaaah riiiiiiiiiight. *hits herself with a sledgehammer* doink!